The following post was supposed to be posted on 12th of May 2011, Thursday...



We had dinner together And his ex wife called again when we reached home... She called to tell him it's their 4th year anniversary!!! And asked him what did she does wrong in the past... My heart beats so fast that I caught my breath... I so mad when I heard how nice Alvin talked to her!!! It happens so many times that she called and Alvin talked nicely to her!!! He trying to leave a good impression to her! And she trying to call and show him that she still think of him! And I'm like the stupidest fool on earth! They started to talk about ATM CARD which I don't understand why she is still using his ATM CARD!!! And Alvin even said this to her " I thought u have a rich bf who buys u ROLEX WATCH ? Why dont u ask him to lend u his card instead? "  <- These words leave doubt in me... How does Alvin knows she has a ROLEX WATCH which bought by her bf??? His conversation sounded to me that he is being sarcastic as he mind that she has a rich bf??? He talked to her like a couple and sounded to me that he is jealous!!! 
I have been feeling that they have something on behind my back... And from this incident I realized that Alvin will nv fulfill his promises to me! This incident has been happening so many times and he still chose to shake it off and nv want to solve it! As usual he still don't want to change his number! He don't see the need to or should I say the importance of it! He is still allowing things to repeat and allowing her to interrupt our relationship! The more upsetting thing is that he told me his mum said that I snatched people's husband and yet I still can be mad over LING CALLING HIM?!!! And Alvin NEVER BACK ME UP from being judged as a THIRD PARTY/VINEX ! 
Why must I be with him then? 
Did he stand by me? NO
Did he clarify things to his mum ? NO
He makes his mum think I am a third party? SOMEHOW
Did he solve this problem on still in contact with Ling ? STILL NO
Did he try to understand how I feel or what I am thinking ? NO
Did he reflects on himself ? NO
Does he knows that he is the main role for this issue? NO HE THINK HE HAS NO FAULT!
Its alright for him as he is not affected... If he sees how important this issue has to be resolved, he can change his number but he still refused to do so ! He used to tell me that he will change his number but he won't ! Isn't him taking me as an idiot or a fool to believe in him and ended up I'm the one who gets hurt again! 
Did he protect u from getting hurt? NO
Did he knows that u r unhappy or crying and yet ignor u? YES !
He has no heart to do anything for me! He always want the easiest way out for himself! And his actions and behavior is still the same! He said that he is always the one doing things ! <- if u did change ur number long ago she will nt contact h and we will nt have issue over this! 
Simply because he don't care what I feel or what I think! 
He is more despicable than before as he gave me promises and hope to change and give me a better future! However a small issue like this he don't even bother about my feelings moreover the future? 
Can I tolerate this in future when it happens again and again? NO I CAN'T AND   I don't want to continue this anymore! I dont want to tolerate this anymore... I have enough! There's so many SCARS in our relationship and being together with him knowing that LING will call again and again... 

He is still as arrogant as before! 

Anyway i know deep within my heart that If I wasn't there beside Alvin I wouldn't know that she called! 

When I cried because I'm upset that he is allowing this thing to hurt me... Yet he continue to discriminate me and acted a crying sound like me again... <- again! He just pissing me off further!