I smile ... I laugh ...
But no one will know how sad, disappointed, lonely, and hurt I am inside...
The only thing harder than losing someone you love, is being with them and knowing you're drifting apart when history is recurring and it really is'nt going to work no matter how hard you try...
I can't forget and I doubt I can forgive either...
Friday, April 22, 2011
Rashes!!! Again!!! Im so frustrated to have rashes after my laser treatment... And it's Good Friday, the clinic is closed... I'm going to tolerate it for a day... But Im so excited to meet Alvin Hubby today... We went to NEX Shopping Mall for dinner... It's super crowded... Though we did nt stay long after dinner... Im hoping that we can spend more time doing what a couple do... Watching movie... Shopping... Crapping on topics... It's seem like we are not there yet... When I'm with Alvin, I have been feeling butterflies in my stomach... Haha... I dont know why maybe I miss him alot... Just one day apart...
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I miss those nights we cuddled together ...
We spend our time together...
We share our life with each other...
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We sparkled in the darkness...
though its gone... but i need you now...
I love flowers.
I love pink.
I'm dainty and dirty; not a trace.
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl. And a beautiful one too.
The DIVA ♥
Christina Small and carefree was how I used to be
When years passed by,.
I started wondering roaming and searching places for my identity.
Uncertainty on the shell isn’t the only thing.
The inside fluff is bruised, painful from the sting.
Feelings sealed in, secrete to the eyes of plenty,
Am I Me?
Despite of it all, I stand my appearance
No cowering in shadows for the need of disappearance
Suit on the great shinning gold amour
Act and talk my own unique behavior
Prediction of my future is impossible
Thought the procedure of each step is readable
The shield is still cracking for me to see.
As I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
As time flows by with new discoveries made
Confusion and wonder of that thought begins to fade
Acceptation grows for who I am
Am I me? Of course I’m me.
This is who I love to be.
WISHLIST ♥
Go around the world. Be a respectable lady. Having a devoted husband & adorable children. Wisdom, Knowledge & Talent.
Fame, Beauty & Fortune.
Friends forever.
Trip to Hollywood.
Be Tom cruise's Leading Lady.
HER AUDIENCES ♥
They applauded her and gave her a standing ovation. PUT CBOX HERE.
Christina
